What you make of it

Yep, it does indeedy seem that life is what you make of it. Your attitude and all that. But then what about the parts that you don't make or can't control? What about the people that you thought you could trust and that was all thrown back at you? What then?
Do you just learn to be bitter? Do you just push on anyway? What do you do with all those feelings that you have...shove them down or get physical with them? I suppose that's what it's all about. But why does it have to get so damn complicated? What about beliefs, and what is true?
What about love and dreams and hope?

As you can tell I'm feeling quite disheartened about things. A lot of dissapointments leave me feeling famished and hopeless. But somehow u know that I'm just gonna keep pushing on. But this is a long dark night indeed.

It's in a tough world of everyone is out for their own and will screw what ever it takes to get there. What a sick tired world we live in. It saddens me to see that this is how I'm feeling. It will hopefully change for the better soon. Yes it would be nice if life could hand me a silver platter soon. But I've always had to work for it. I have to believe in myself somehow, and push on. And trust none other than God. Not even myself.

I went to see Bjork a few weeks ago. I LOVE her! The show was awesome, and I met some ppl who hooked me up to a hair job! Yay! But now I gotta make some money and SOON! Shugga daddy??? Please?