It's time...
...to leave things behind where they are in the past. They had their lessons learned and experienced; and now on to the new ones...
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Monday, September 24, 2007
Friday, August 10, 2007
latest news
I think I maybe should change to another blog. I think i havent been writing as much because this blog belongs to my Korea trip. i dont want to have it different...and want to separate and segregate these feelings and experiences in that place...in this space.
I am feeling much much better and more hopeful than my last post. Funny how time really does heal things. I've also been learning sooo much about myself in the last months. A LOT. Too much to say here, and things are too private to post here. Can you believe it...there will be paintings to come. Read into them as you will.
Until then, I'm happy being and working in a very creative space doing hair. Loving the creative people I'm with. And almost all of them are gay...and it's Great. It feels safe and fun. Let's keep it that way. ;)
Pride parades and summer festivals. A cold summer, not as much sun as we'd all like, but summer none the less.
I'm going dancing a lot, and I hope to start a few classes...when time /drop ins permit. Maybe I'll be teaching bellydancing soon. Who knows.
Allrighty...I gotta run.
Everything will be allright.
Positive thoughts lead to positive thinking
I am feeling much much better and more hopeful than my last post. Funny how time really does heal things. I've also been learning sooo much about myself in the last months. A LOT. Too much to say here, and things are too private to post here. Can you believe it...there will be paintings to come. Read into them as you will.
Until then, I'm happy being and working in a very creative space doing hair. Loving the creative people I'm with. And almost all of them are gay...and it's Great. It feels safe and fun. Let's keep it that way. ;)
Pride parades and summer festivals. A cold summer, not as much sun as we'd all like, but summer none the less.
I'm going dancing a lot, and I hope to start a few classes...when time /drop ins permit. Maybe I'll be teaching bellydancing soon. Who knows.
Allrighty...I gotta run.
Everything will be allright.
Positive thoughts lead to positive thinking
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
What you make of it
Yep, it does indeedy seem that life is what you make of it. Your attitude and all that. But then what about the parts that you don't make or can't control? What about the people that you thought you could trust and that was all thrown back at you? What then?
Do you just learn to be bitter? Do you just push on anyway? What do you do with all those feelings that you have...shove them down or get physical with them? I suppose that's what it's all about. But why does it have to get so damn complicated? What about beliefs, and what is true?
What about love and dreams and hope?
As you can tell I'm feeling quite disheartened about things. A lot of dissapointments leave me feeling famished and hopeless. But somehow u know that I'm just gonna keep pushing on. But this is a long dark night indeed.
It's in a tough world of everyone is out for their own and will screw what ever it takes to get there. What a sick tired world we live in. It saddens me to see that this is how I'm feeling. It will hopefully change for the better soon. Yes it would be nice if life could hand me a silver platter soon. But I've always had to work for it. I have to believe in myself somehow, and push on. And trust none other than God. Not even myself.
I went to see Bjork a few weeks ago. I LOVE her! The show was awesome, and I met some ppl who hooked me up to a hair job! Yay! But now I gotta make some money and SOON! Shugga daddy??? Please?
Do you just learn to be bitter? Do you just push on anyway? What do you do with all those feelings that you have...shove them down or get physical with them? I suppose that's what it's all about. But why does it have to get so damn complicated? What about beliefs, and what is true?
What about love and dreams and hope?
As you can tell I'm feeling quite disheartened about things. A lot of dissapointments leave me feeling famished and hopeless. But somehow u know that I'm just gonna keep pushing on. But this is a long dark night indeed.
It's in a tough world of everyone is out for their own and will screw what ever it takes to get there. What a sick tired world we live in. It saddens me to see that this is how I'm feeling. It will hopefully change for the better soon. Yes it would be nice if life could hand me a silver platter soon. But I've always had to work for it. I have to believe in myself somehow, and push on. And trust none other than God. Not even myself.
I went to see Bjork a few weeks ago. I LOVE her! The show was awesome, and I met some ppl who hooked me up to a hair job! Yay! But now I gotta make some money and SOON! Shugga daddy??? Please?
Sunday, April 22, 2007
Feelin a bit depressed tonight. A bit lonely. Life is like that.
Had a good day at work today. Got through it with all the other situations involved like new managers and the tension that can cause. Hard stuff. I need to start my own business I think. That takes a lot of planning and money and risk...but sometimes that wot it takes to get ahead.
I had dinner with a friend of mine who is a social worker, and she is trying to get me to go back to school to be an Occupational Therapist. Hmmmmm. Second degree, time, money.
Design
Korea/Teach English
Hair
OT
Too many choices and which is the best for me. Would someone just drop a note and tell me wot to do so I dont have to make up my mind? Ok thanx! Hah!
Well, I should be getting to sleep...geez I just wrote to work. Guess where my head's at? Trying to get used to the idea that I think I might be too independent to be with someone. It might just be better to be on my own. Yep, because I'm only responsible for me, and that's the best place to start out from.
Allrighty..I feel a bit better now that everyone on the planet can hear me..or at least see what I'm feeling. Cuz somewhere in there, I think a lot of other ppl feel similarly too. Perhaps...
Had a good day at work today. Got through it with all the other situations involved like new managers and the tension that can cause. Hard stuff. I need to start my own business I think. That takes a lot of planning and money and risk...but sometimes that wot it takes to get ahead.
I had dinner with a friend of mine who is a social worker, and she is trying to get me to go back to school to be an Occupational Therapist. Hmmmmm. Second degree, time, money.
Design
Korea/Teach English
Hair
OT
Too many choices and which is the best for me. Would someone just drop a note and tell me wot to do so I dont have to make up my mind? Ok thanx! Hah!
Well, I should be getting to sleep...geez I just wrote to work. Guess where my head's at? Trying to get used to the idea that I think I might be too independent to be with someone. It might just be better to be on my own. Yep, because I'm only responsible for me, and that's the best place to start out from.
Allrighty..I feel a bit better now that everyone on the planet can hear me..or at least see what I'm feeling. Cuz somewhere in there, I think a lot of other ppl feel similarly too. Perhaps...
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Violently Happy
Just what it says. I feel happy but there's feelings of violence of separation from a lot of things. That's how life is. A crossroads of sorts.
The other side of that is that Bjork is coming to town...!!!!! And I GOTTA go! No questions asked! Sooo exciting.
I've got a LOT of clothes. I'm a clothes-a-holic. And I love it...but I've got to do some spring cleaning. The next issue is that it's SOOO hard to get rid of things sometimes...cuz the way my brain works is that I can always find things to do with things. BUT, then I have to find the time to do them etc... The same thing with taxes. Stupid little pieces of paper with Numbers on them...and they're all a jumble, and I'm supposed to add them all up and make sense of them! Um, NOT! Then I'm supposed to tell the government about it all so they can tell me to give them more money! Errrrr!!
Its a Saturday, and I slept in and it feels good, but i feel guilty. Stupid guilt feelings anyway. But I really should get out and do something...but what. Cuz then I'll have to spend more money. Errrr....
Oooh...I have an idea. INVITE someone over! Hmmm. Why don't I think of that more often?
I gotta get some CD's burned too. And that take a trip to the cafe somewhere so I can do that.
I gotta get a driver for this mouse to hopefully work. Can't seem to get it to do that. Too old or something?
All these little projects that I need or want to do. Oh yes, and painting. That's the other thing. I can't quite seem to get into that yet. I have lots of things brewing...but I need to get some paint on those canvasses! It will come...it will take time. I suppose it's because there are so many other places my brain needs to be at the moment.
Allrighty. Here's to the next bit...
The other side of that is that Bjork is coming to town...!!!!! And I GOTTA go! No questions asked! Sooo exciting.
I've got a LOT of clothes. I'm a clothes-a-holic. And I love it...but I've got to do some spring cleaning. The next issue is that it's SOOO hard to get rid of things sometimes...cuz the way my brain works is that I can always find things to do with things. BUT, then I have to find the time to do them etc... The same thing with taxes. Stupid little pieces of paper with Numbers on them...and they're all a jumble, and I'm supposed to add them all up and make sense of them! Um, NOT! Then I'm supposed to tell the government about it all so they can tell me to give them more money! Errrrr!!
Its a Saturday, and I slept in and it feels good, but i feel guilty. Stupid guilt feelings anyway. But I really should get out and do something...but what. Cuz then I'll have to spend more money. Errrr....
Oooh...I have an idea. INVITE someone over! Hmmm. Why don't I think of that more often?
I gotta get some CD's burned too. And that take a trip to the cafe somewhere so I can do that.
I gotta get a driver for this mouse to hopefully work. Can't seem to get it to do that. Too old or something?
All these little projects that I need or want to do. Oh yes, and painting. That's the other thing. I can't quite seem to get into that yet. I have lots of things brewing...but I need to get some paint on those canvasses! It will come...it will take time. I suppose it's because there are so many other places my brain needs to be at the moment.
Allrighty. Here's to the next bit...
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
I'm listening to Bjork. I've got a new craving for her music. It usually seems to come when I'm at crossroads in my life, or I'm in need of some creativity. Or I feel negative, or frustrated...that's when 'Army of Me' or a few others hit the spot. Yep...gotta love those moods. Not always.
She's coming to town, and I'm hoping to see her. I think she's just strikingly amazing and original and her mind goes way beyond the 'normal'...creedos to her! Swan dress and all. Now THAT'S red carpet! I just gushed over it and her guts to be different and show it at the Oscars. I love originality and the mind that would think that up.
She's coming to town, and I'm hoping to see her. I think she's just strikingly amazing and original and her mind goes way beyond the 'normal'...creedos to her! Swan dress and all. Now THAT'S red carpet! I just gushed over it and her guts to be different and show it at the Oscars. I love originality and the mind that would think that up.
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